Hey! What's up. CelebSwap here.
I know I've been in and out, here and back for awhile now. I just feel like I owe you an explanation for why my capping has slowed down so much and why I've been away.
Okay. I'm gonna try to put as simply as I can. My life has been a roller coaster ride through hell for
the past 2 years. I've lost family members, pets, friends. It all just left me without the passion to make captions for the blog. I loved interacting with the community and talking with people who also enjoy these types of stories but every time I tried to make something for the blog itself, I just couldn't.
With all the the stuff happening in my life, I found myself in a really dark place. I was at the end of my rope and felt like I had nowhere to go. Everything that once made me happy was just bringing me down. I felt hopeless for a long time. Around the end of last year, I had serious thoughts about
suicide and I'm a little ashamed of that. I was weak, I was hurting and I didn't know what to do.
Luckily. Someone came out of left field and gave me an outlet to find happiness again. A girl that I had met before through the TG writing community but never knew just how good of a person she was until we started talking more and more. She made me feel so special and loved. In a way that I can't really put into words. She saved my life. She knows who she is and I hope she's not too embarrassed by me talking about her here. (Whatever. She'll get over it. lol)
I've been feeling better but I know I'm not out of the woods yet. I'm taking every step to make myself better and have fun again. I've really enjoyed coming back and doing a few caps here. More so enjoying the feedback from you readers! It really made me feel like I was back in a good place.
Sorry for the rambling post. I just thought I owed you all an explanation. I'm not saying I'm back for good and never leaving again. But I am saying that I'm alive and feeling alright.
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Im glad your starting to do better and things are starting to get better. Im glad your starting to do things that make you happy again.
ReplyDeleteI’m pretty glad too. :) lol
Deletelol i'm happy for you
DeleteI've been there. I was hospitalized for suicidal depression a few years ago. I understand the shame, but try your best to push back against it -- there's no reason to be ashamed. We all struggle. Please take care, and know you're a lot more valuable than some TG captions.
ReplyDeleteThanks. :)
DeleteHang in there, darling,you're so important! How aqmazing you have this life to live! You have all the support and love from us, your fans.
ReplyDeleteYoure always the capper i visit first
That really means a lot to me. Thank you so much! :)
DeleteI'm sure all of your fans were worried something had happened. Glad to know stuff is getting better. Take care!
ReplyDeletePs don't feel bad about ranting if you need to, we will always be here if you need to take something off your chest!
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DeleteWe are here for you. I've really enjoyed over the last few weeks reading through all of your caps. They have been quite helpful to me. Since I've been in a dark place myself and not had my usual outlet.
ReplyDeleteAll good brother. I hope everything is cool with you!
DeleteI'm glad that you're taking the necessary steps for this situation. I always loved your captions and seeing you make 2 captions I requested warmed my heart. Take as long as you need, we'll be here waiting for you as long as it takes.
ReplyDeleteThanks man! Means a lot. I hope you liked those 2 captions!
DeleteI'm glad to hear your feeling better.
ReplyDeleteI'm pretty happy about it myself! Thanks for the support!
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